After about 2 months of practicing both walking and sitting meditation
(insight meditation of the observation of arising and vanishing of phenomena),
it seems that I have entered a mental state where there is just sheer boredom.
In the first few weeks, there were periods of joy and rapture at the noticing of phenomena arising and vanishing.
The mere seeing of the impermanent nature of phenomena caused deep contentment and tranquility to arise in the mind.
I was enthusiastic about being delivered from defilements and
I thought that this newfound power of observation will continue on until all defilements have been destroyed.

Now, however, I just sit like a vegetable for long periods of
time and watch the same spectacle unfolding without caring much about it.
It’s no longer interesting to investigate the arising and vanishing.
The mind has become dull, the body doesn’t want to eat and there’s aversion towards food,
and interacting with fellow yogis at the monastery is bothersome to me.
While other people seem to be happily living out each day,
I’m almost never concerned about anything.
I avoid conversation and will only speak the bare minimum enough
to function properly since I live in a community with group activities like pindapāta,
communal work, chantings, and Dhamma discussions.
Other than that, I prefer to keep to myself.

Small things that disrupt my mental calmness tend to cause me
annoyance e.g. people coughing or farting during group meditation,
someone starting to sweep 5 minutes before it’s officially duty time,
someone saying good morning to me...
simple things of that nature.
Initially, these weren’t things I’d get flustered about.
They were objects of meditation but now they seem like they disrupt my inner quietude.

The boredom that the seemingly uninteresting meditation has brought
about is causing people to inquire whether I’m doing okay because I always look sad and dejected.
The people who “check on me” are only a few who I consider to
be nosy anyways because they don’t understand that they shouldn’t
be concerned with the meditation progress of other yogis unless they are the meditation teacher.

I’m neither experiencing joy nor sorrow.
There’s neither happiness nor sadness.
No motivation at all.
During meditation, there’s no desire to cultivate concentration.
But even when a little bit of it comes about,
the mind somehow automatically starts noticing the arising and vanishing of phenomena again.
Hearing - abandoning the sound; thinking - abandoning the thought;
hearing again - abandoning the sound again; knowing again - abandoning again.
When the mind lets go of a sense object,
it just reverts to that bare awareness that is plain boring with nothing happening.
Will I be seeing this rising and vanishing forever?
When does it end?

My days are spent creeping around like a zombie and doing things ultra slowly which I imagine puts people off.
I try to maintain the awareness of bodily movements in the present but it becomes distasteful quickly as,
yet again, there appears to be nothing but the arising and vanishing
of mental and physical phenomena without rhyme or reason.
Gazing downwards without interest in my surroundings is far more
desirable than looking about here and there saying hello to people.
I’m afraid I’m coming across as snobbish.
The problem is I can’t describe my current situation to other yogis because they wouldn’t understand.
I wouldn’t even know where to begin.
They like to walk in groups with friendly chit-chat,
giggling, and socializing so I’d rather not strike up a conversation with them.